Religious Beliefs

What some people may revel in, I despise... I am going to type this from my mind, from my heart. BY NO MEANS DO I MEAN TO IMPOSE MY OPINION ONTO ANYONE, THIS IS PURELY MY OPINION ALONE. In my time here on earth, I have been given the freedom to come to my own conclusions of life and it's meaning. My opinion is as follows; There is no "God". To me, the concept of an "all powerful being" does not make sense. Same thing applies to the notion of a "hell" where all spirits go (FOR ALL ETERNITY) when they don't follow the rules of a book to be tormented by a lake of flames.

I was raised in a Christian household with hardcore Christian parents. We go to church every Sunday and they force me to go to youth group meetings and bible studies. We even pray every morning before we go out for the day. I started losing my interest in religion around my preteens. I went to a school with a wide diversity of students. Most of my friends had different beliefs and I was okay with that. Heck, some of my best friends are bi/gay/lesbian and I loved every bit of them.

One day, we were watching the news and there was a story about a man protesting about gay rights. I was starting to get a little frustrated about the reaction, so I asked my parents, "why is it so wrong to be gay?" With which they replied, "god says that a man shall not lay down with the same sex." They went on to say something like "it's not real love" or something of that nature. How dare they. I believe that all love, any love is beautiful. Why should we be ashamed of who we love?

Another time we were in church (I sit in the very back), it's a relaxed, more modern church. They were talking about this couple who sold their house, gave some of the money to the church, then lied saying they gave all instead of what they actually gave. You know what happened next? God killed them. He killed them for lying. That was the last straw. I knew that this whole "religion" crap was complete and utter bullshit.

I suffer from depression (which I'm currently taking pills for). The bible says that we need to go out and help others and spread the word of God. I had never received any help when I was suffering the most. Before I off'd myself, I went to go seek help- ON MY OWN. God didn't do shit for me. Ever. I was alone pretty much my whole childhood. No real friends. Treated as an outcast. On top of all that, my mother wanted me to go up to my peers and say, "have you heard of the word of god?" No.

I absolutely hate when people try to force their opinions onto me. That's why I built a wall. It's been destroyed before, gone through tough battles and even tougher wars. I am now someone who can think for myself and I don't need an "all powerful being" to guide me through life. I know whats right and wrong (which is another thing. I have when someone destroys a forest, washes out a family of cats, or even swipes away a cobweb. Yes, somethings are annoying, but we live in a world with many other creatures that also call it home. Just because they don't talk like we do, doesn't give us the right to destroy their lives). I am polite to my teachers and other adults (and even my peers sometimes). I cannot stand when some one starts freaking out because their teacher found out they were texting in class and took their phone away. Seriously? What did you THINK was going to happen?

I will end with this;
Yes, I understand that parents want to be good examples and train you on how to be a good person. However, I'm a human who has dreams and opinions of my own, and there is nothing that you can say or do that will force me to conform to your wants. That is a decision that I will make if I choose. And the same should apply for everyone of you.

Thank you.